Husband's DV, divorce, separation from children. Improving family relationships through 'love that gives' from a lonely life

About three years ago, I was living a very isolated life with an empty heart. I had nothing to do except for my accounting job, and when I got home, I would sit alone on the sofa and spend the night watching TV until late. My heart was filled with loneliness.

(Oh God, what is left in my life...?)

In my mind, sad events from the past replayed over and over. My husband's depression, suicide attempts, violence towards me and my daughter, and the divorce—. After separating from my husband, my daughter said she wanted to live with her 'father' and left. I fought with my husband in court many times over child support. My son got involved with drugs. Then, I broke up with my own boyfriend...

I sought God's guidance, reading spiritual books and attending self-improvement seminars, trying to make my heart positive. However, on weekends, I had no motivation and could only spend my time aimlessly on the sofa or bed.

One day, after work, I went out to buy daily necessities and saw several people recommending books to passersby.

(Are they doing some kind of campaign?)

As I passed by, a young woman called out to me.

"Hello! This is Happy Science (Note 1)"

She introduced me to a book called 'The Law of the Sun' (Note 2) and invited me to a meditation seminar that was being held at a nearby library that day.

(Meditation, huh... Should I give it a try?)

That evening, when I attended the seminar, I was deeply moved by the content. I wanted to learn more and became a member of Happy Science on the spot.

From that day on, I started attending the local Happy Science branch after work and on holidays. There were always many members who welcomed me with lovely smiles and warm hugs.

(This place feels so comfortable...)

Note 1: The English name of the Science of Happiness
Note 2: A book by President Ryuho Okawa. It is one of the basic texts of Happy Science that covers the truths of life, from Genesis to the structure of the spirit world and the flow of civilization, with teachings on a grand scale.

As I learned the teachings of Master Okawa, I came to understand that the suffering encountered in life has meaning and how to overcome it and transform it into my own nourishment. The conflicts and love-hate relationships with my husband and children had long tormented my heart, but the Master's teaching of 'love that gives' provided me with hints to overcome it.

'Love that gives' means loving others without expecting anything in return. And I was taught that this selfless love is the 'true love' that makes humans happy.

(I wanted to be loved more by my family, but in reality, I wasn't loved as I wished, and I had been accumulating suffering...)

I realized that this 'unfulfilled desire' was the cause of my suffering. I participated in the branch seminars and reflected on my conflicts with my family, removing one by one the attachment of my heart that wanted to be loved.

As a result, my heavy heart gradually became lighter, and the desire to 'love others' overflowed from the bottom of my heart.

(From now on, I will be the one who gives!)

I began to make efforts to communicate with the aim of restoring my relationship with my husband and daughter.

Due to the past relationship, there were times when I was treated harshly or received thoughtless words, but recalling the Master's teaching that 'everyone was originally companions living together in heaven,' I was able to forgive the other person and even felt gratitude, thinking, 'They are the ones who give me lessons.'

As I continued to make efforts, little by little, but surely, my relationship with my family harmonized.

(No matter the environment, I can give love. Surely, all the suffering until now was an experience to learn this truth.)

While experiencing the sadness of my family drifting apart, I kept thinking about 'what connects people.' But now, I understand that 'love that gives' is the power that binds people together.

(There must be many others besides me who are struggling with love. Now it's my turn to convey the happiness of 'love that gives'—)

Currently, I am sharing the Master's teachings with local people every week with my friends from the Toronto branch. Every day delivering God's love is very fulfilling, and I no longer feel the loneliness and suffering I once did.

If I hadn't encountered Happy Science, I would still be on the sofa. However, by believing in the Master, my heart has grown tenfold. Now, I am convinced that learning and spreading the Master's teachings is my 'life's mission.'

This year, I want to spread Happy Science in Toronto, where the Master directly taught, and help as many people as possible to find happiness. I want to do my best as long as I have life.