Until a miracle befalls a former elementary school teacher—Goodbye to depression. I was able to smile! 【Personal Experience】

I became severely depressed four years ago when I was 54 years old.

As an elementary school teacher, I became the homeroom teacher for a special support class and took care of students who were said to have 'ADHD'. However, I was unable to effectively guide children who would run out of the classroom during lessons or those who would get angry quickly.

(...I wish the mothers would cooperate more...)

When I asked parents to guide their children, the relationship deteriorated, and it sometimes became a problem at the Board of Education.

(I can't take it anymore...)

I lost my mental composure and couldn't focus on work. When I went to the hospital, I was diagnosed with depression and received tranquilizers, but since I disliked medication, I stopped taking them.

And nine months after becoming the homeroom teacher, I took a leave of absence...

(I'm glad, this will surely get better)

However, on the contrary, my symptoms worsened.

I continued to suffer from insomnia, my head always felt heavy as if 'something was weighing down on it', and I couldn't keep my body upright. Even when resting on the sofa, the chirping of birds outside sounded eerie, and fear welled up inside me.

I couldn't even cook, and my husband kindly made meals for me. I finally became completely unable to smile.

(Ah, this is tough. I want to feel better—)

One day, while I was living through heavy days.

"H, how are you?"

I received a call from my friend Y.

"Actually, I became depressed..."

Then Y, worried about me, invited me to the branch open_in_new of Happy Science.

"Why don't you come to the branch? You can get better."

Now that I think about it, when I previously had a 'slight depression', it was thanks to Y inviting me to Happy Science's movies open_in_new and temple open_in_new that I was able to regain my spirits.

(Staying at home only makes me feel down...)

I decided to seek help and go.

Later, when I went to Koga Branch open_in_new in Y's car, a believer named S welcomed me. S had previously overcome a difficult situation through the teachings of Happy Science and listened to my story with genuine concern.

"Even if it's tough now, you can get better with these teachings. It's going to be okay."

Y talked about a miracle that happened to someone they knew.

"There was a woman who got terminal cancer, but she kept watching the '50-volume video' (Note 1), and now she's on the road to recovery."

The 50-volume video is a collection of videos featuring President Okawa open_in_new's sermons. Y shared that by learning the teachings of the divine through the sermons, one's heart becomes brighter, and physical and mental illnesses can be healed.

"The sermon videos are filled with the light of the divine. Listening to them can make you feel better."

(...Since I'm here, maybe I should watch it)

I became eager to learn from the sermons and decided to attend the branch to listen.

Note 1: A collection of 50 major sermons by President Okawa from the early days of Happy Science (now distributed on DVD).

I started driving myself to the branch, but when I played the video, for some reason, I felt like I was being 'scolded', which was painful, and I couldn't absorb the content at all. When I consulted Y...

"That happens. I think there are evil spirits attached to you, H, that are trying to prevent you from hearing the teachings. But you know, there's the 'Law of Resonance' (Note 2)..."

(Resonance...?)

"When you have a dark heart, that frequency connects to hell and attracts evil spirits, but as you learn President Okawa's sermons, your heart's frequency aligns with the heavenly realm, so the evil spirits can't stay attached. If you keep watching, they'll definitely be removed."

"...I see. I understand, I'll keep going."

I trusted Y and set a goal to watch all the videos, attending the branch regularly.

As I continued to listen, strangely, from the 10th volume onward, I gradually began to understand the content, and my state of mind started to calm down.

In particular, the sermon 'Love People, Give Life to People, Forgive People' (Note 3) resonated deeply with my heart.

"You can't truly find strength unless you go through certain hardships or difficulties. (Omitted) Even if you have made many mistakes in the past, there is a way to turn that into a positive (Omitted) I want to say this."

（Maybe the current difficult situation is also for the purpose of refining myself...）

I felt like I could see a glimmer of hope.

I listened to Dharma talks at the branch and continued to listen to the CD of the Happy Science sutra 'Buddha's Teachings: The True Heart Sutra open_in_new' (※4) at home. As a result, I felt as if I was being protected by the deities, and my fear transformed into a sense of security. To my surprise, I recovered enough to return to work in less than six months.

※2: In the spiritual world, there is a law that similar wavelengths resonate with each other. The possession by evil spirits occurs based on this law.

※3: 'Love people, give life to people, forgive people. open_in_new（Authored by Ryuho Okawa, published by Happy Science）.

※4: The fundamental scripture of Happy Science. For details, please refer toMonthly "Science of Happiness" No. 397 open_in_new pages 28 and 46.

A few months later, I experienced an even greater turning point. I was able to participate in Chairman Okawa's Great Lecture open_in_new held in Fukuoka.

Chairman Okawa spoke about the true view of life, the ideal state of Japanese politics, and his love for people around the world. He passionately called for creating companions to spread this teaching and build a utopia.

"It's not the time to be a 'ghost believer'! If you don't stand up now, it will be too late—"

（Hah! 'Ghost believer,' that's me...）

Although I was saved from depression by the protection of the deities, I wasn't trying to spread happiness to those around me. I strongly wanted to change that about myself.

Since then, I decided to attend the branch every Tuesday without fail, participate in prayers and gatherings, and also visit homes to spread happiness in the community.

My fellow practitioners and the branch leader always say, "A heart of gratitude is important," and "Let's practice 'the love that gives.'"

As I learned from such daily conversations, I became able to reflect on why I became depressed and look back on the causes.

（I lacked the thought of wanting to make others happy and a heart of gratitude...）

When I was depressed, I was full of complaints to the guardians, saying, "I want this, I want that." I thought I understood the feelings of the guardians and students, but in reality, I was only thinking about my own feelings.

However, upon reflection, I also remembered how the guardians cared for me and encouraged me... Gratitude for what I had been given began to well up within me.

（I was living contrary to the teachings of the deities...）

In Happy Science, we are taught that "humans are the children of Buddha." From now on, I want to live as a child of Buddha for the happiness of those around me, so I decided to resign and dedicate myself to branch activities.

My parents were happy to see me becoming more energetic through branch activities and converted to Happy Science. Additionally, my father, who was suffering from colon cancer, watched a Happy Science movie and experienced a miracle, recovering from stage 4 to stage 1, and then completely healing.

Now I am truly happy. I want to continue spreading happiness with gratitude.